Isabella Streffen
Cyanometer for my Heart
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I was already in love with blue before I met her
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la vide
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the blue of oceanic silk wisps, a silver bound edge of turquoise, pearling, proliferating
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the horizon
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Antwerp blues that need the punctuation of old silver and crystal
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Venetian blues that want gold and pink plaster
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soft-surfaced Nabis blues, smeared with gold
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the Italian blues of frescoes with strangely-angled angels
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all the blues of 16mm film of the ocean, the nitrate rush, the slow dissolve, the slicked celluloid glaze
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nocturnes of blue and silver, shears of green and falling fireworks
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the nacreous blue at the back of an eye, how could I forget that? and other eyes
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winter blue, just-born eyes staring back into mine
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eyes of sadist blue flame
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beloved eyes, the slippery blue-grey of where sky and horizon meet somewhere in the North Sea
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the blue of an eye as it follows moonlight, when the full moon rises, the blue intensifies
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eyes which should be full of powdery-blue steel but instead are full of the black orchids of internal trouble
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cerulean blue as a keyhole view
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blue as moonlight halo, as starlight in a grid, as inland sea, as satin
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as a spring sky, the colour of the blue screen of death
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some claim Paris is the city of blue, but
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it’s a city of other colours set against blue, where blue is the structure of your vision
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a celestial promise of artificial light in the blue hour
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a spectacular rent of cerise, silver punctuation, gold veering rose, against blue
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it’s a line of stone, a precise beige bourgeoise, against ceiling papered after Yves Klein
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it’s the glaucous of trouble on a cloudy November afternoon in an hotel room in the cinquième, and
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it’s the sky opened like a secret in a mouth
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it’s the shot silk of a lilacked bruise
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it’s light flickering between Hague blue walls and pale skin and white linen
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it’s a wardrobe inspired by cyanotypes, I can only transmit in cyanotype tonight
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the trouble with blue is that you need all of them
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indecency blue, luring blue
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blue as expectation and thirst
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indistinctness blue, you’ll take it, and I’ll take you, I really will
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the blue of a swoon
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like a peace offering after rain
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the blue of veins and their surprising constituents
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the blue lightning while we fucked in the orangerie, and left my knickers for tourists on the lawn
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the burn of a blue flame, the blue of fury
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the oscillatory iridescence of a dragonfly, or a blue-arsed fly
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the blue of a sky making promises it can’t keep, it’s not in the nature of skies to keep promises
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and there are nights where blue is forbidden, tell me of those
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blue as a disappearance at sea, the blue after-image
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leached blue flooded with the deep dark, and the blur
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my favourite blue, where blue turns to green or green turns to blue, somewhere on a peacock’s neck
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the electric blue of a tulle meringue or an ambulance or a resuscitation
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the blue that cradles true lovers, or is the backdrop for the Queen of Night
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Walpurgis blue
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the blue of forgetting-you-not
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the blue velvet that lined a shoe
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the blue hours, the midnight hour, the moments before dawn when the sky imperceptibly lightens and blue glazes the trees, cosmos blue, where the edges of the world sharpen
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Rebecca’s blues: the blue of distance, blue in the depths and the edges; Maggie’s blues, the bluets; Lise’s blues, the most blue skies, the blue of looking back at earth from space, the blue unmentionable films, the blue stockings, the cyanide blue of Laura Palmer’s lips, cyanometers and the uses we put them to
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say all you want, it was the sky, it is a glass bowl for dreaming.